Have you ever????

Have you ever laid down
and fell asleep;
and wishing for a peaceful night
then instead your night is stolen
by nightmares
dreaming of your baby's grave is a nightmare
isn't it?????

Have you ever woke up
and wondered what this dream meant
or why is it coming???
Being deep in thoughts......

Have you ever felt
you can dig up the grave
and re-burry your child
scary thoughts isn't it???

Is it part of the grieving process???
Or is it total madness and paranoial
of some sort????
Hmmm,this doen't sound good to me

Have you ever thought
you could have done things differently
that maybe and only maybe
if you had done this or that
you wouldn't be among the statistics of stillbirth
Is it guilt consuming you
or is it your mind playing tricks
Hmmmmm,what ever it is I rid it

Have you ever wished
that you will lie down
and when you wake up
your baby will be in your arms
Hmmmm,this is what I call wishful thinking
But is it wrong for a mother to wish for that???
I don't think so,
I think it is normal
But hey I am an angel mom and thoughts like these sounds normal to me
Will you call me crazy???
Either way,it comforts my heart
Who said that keeping the faith is crazy
Yes I won't hold my dead baby
But I will hold a bouncy baby in my hands
You might call it replacing a child
And I call it a blessing from God

Have you ever wished
you were not in this sinking boat
Reality is you are....
And what are you doing about it
I have chosen to have positive thoughts
What is your choice?????

To all angel moms being hopeful is not wrong,being positive is not wrong as well,keep being positive,hopeful and add prayerful.