Thanksgiving

Hmmm to be honest 2011 hasn't been a year that I looked for in my entire life.All my dreams were shattered,all I hoped for was not fulfilled but above all I am still thankful for my experiences.Yes my baby died,whilst I was waiting in anticipation to welcome her into my world,to love her and care for her but that was not God's will for our lives;however I am still hopeful that God is still in control.

I would like to thank Him for His faithfulness towards me,for His loving kindness towards me,in the midst of my storm He was there.In the dark tunnel He provided me with light so that I see my way out.I felt like dying when Nkazimulo died but He renewed my strength.I stand in awe of my Daddy so great.

I would like to thank Nkazimulo for being in my womb for 31 weeks 6 days.I will always cherish the moments I spent with you;some women cannot even conceive but I conceived you so easily.Yes my heart breaks that you are not here with me but I am thankful that I have a guidian angel to watch over me and our family day and night.

I would like to thank everyone who was there for me and still here for me.The forums that gave me courage and are still encouraging me to press on.I won't name anyone and of you lovely people from around the world who take your time to read my blog.I never thought there would be people interested in my sobby stories but you do take your time to read my traumatic experience.My family and friends,thank you.

Lastly I would like to thank my daughter who cheers me up everyday and give me the joy of being a mother.You are a true blessing and mommy loves you so dearly.

I love you Nkazimulo

Filled with hope

Woohoo I am filled with so much hope,after reading an inspiring birth story of a rainbow baby.To be honest I stand in awe of our God so great,indeed He is faithful and delivers as He has promised.

To all angel moms who are trying to conceive or have conceived know that God is able,He is the Giver of Life and like my quote says "after a storm when you are with God there is always a rainbow."I remember speaking to this particular angel mom who is now overjoyed with the birth of a beautiful healthy baby boy and she overcame her fear of yet another stillbirth by keeping positive and had sort of a mark that should I pass this,I am fine.So I urge all angel mom who are expecting their rainbows to have something that will work for them to keep positive.

If God is for us,no one will be against us,so wishing you all rainbow babies in the future.

Vent,vent,vent

All the time,I get so pissed about people thinking I owe them explanations about my own life,plans and dreams.I really don't get their mentality, okay freedom of speech is given so why not use it responsibly.If I decide not to say what killed my baby or when am I having another one why should it bother people.

I am my own person and certainly don't need anyone else's approval so keep your opinions to yourself.I really don't like nosdey people because I am not nosey and couldn't care less about who does what,at what time.I mind my own business and so wish some people can get a life and mind their own businesses.We all have a part in our lives that didn't go our way so being an angel mom doesn't make me an allien from Mars,I am still human.