A poem for a grieving mother

Today I should be watching over you, but instead you are flying above, watching over me. I should be seeing you smile while you look up at me, Instead I look up to the sky and smile knowing you are at peace. I should be rocking you to sleep in my arms every night, Instead I’m sitting here rocking myself back and forth with my arms crossed. I should be comforting you and wiping away your tears as you cry, Instead I’m wiping away the river of tears that I cry, with nothing to comfort me. I should be exhausted from getting up with you every couple of hours. Instead I’m exhausted from sleepless nights because all I dream of is you. I should be fixing you bottles and feeding you baby foods, Instead I’m trying to find a reason for myself to eat and drink. I should be watching you learn to crawl across the floor. Instead I’m the one on my hands and knees begging to have you back I should be watching you grow, Instead I’m watching myself learn to let go. I should be buying you clothes and toys, Instead I buy flowers to place on your tombstone. I should be celebrating you achieving your milestones. Instead I count the months that pass since you passed. I should be listening to the sound of you breathing while you lay asleep on my chest, Instead my chest aches and it hurts to even breathe. I should be showing your pictures to all my friends and family, Instead only a select view have gotten to see you. I should be carrying you with me, everywhere I go ….. Well this is one thing that I do, for you are always in my heart.

The Cord by unknown Author

We are connected, My mother and I, By an invisible cord Not seen by the eye. It's not like the cord That connects us 'til birth This cord can't be seen By any on earth. This cord does its work Right from the start. It binds us together Attached to my heart. I know that it's there Though no one can see The invisible cord From my mom to me. The strength of this cord Man could not create It withstands the test Can hold any weight. And though he is gone, Though he's not here with me, The cord is still there But no one can see. It pulls at my heart I am bruised...I am sure, But this cord is my lifeline As never before. I am thankful that God Connects us this way. A mother and child

Being away made it hard for me to keep in touch and expressing myself because my smartphone wasn't smart enough for me.Some of us are just plain old school.Hmmm I wish to share my pregnancy journey with the whole world but kinda feel that it's inappropriate to share in this blog but sometimes feel this is the right place cause there is an angel mom out there who is expecting a rainbow and facing challenges like I did.My pregnancy was healthy and the baby as well but emotionally I was a nervous wreck and how I kept sane is the secret I would want to share with expectant angel mommies. So I will make time to come and share with you how I managed to keep it together for the whole nine months and to adjust to being a mother after a great loss.My wish really is no woman world wide will have to visit this blog because she lost a baby but hey only I can be granted this one wish and women will be happy and never feel this void that nothing can soothe.