Angel Mom

I know you never wanted to be;
but either way who will want to be
an angel mom.
I know you cry yourself to sleep everday;
but either way who will expect you to be
the same after being an angel mom.
I know you cannot let go of all memories;
but who will expect you to be after a
painful experiance.
I know you are scared to concieve again;
but who will expect you not to be.
I know you count the days,weeks,months
and eventually years;
but who will expect you not to
when all you have ever wanted was to count&celebrate birthdays.

I am an angel mom and all I ever dreamt of
was raising my baby girl.
I know how it feels to be told there is no heartbeat.
I know how it feels when people look at you like you
have a contagious disease.
I know how it is to sleep in a pool of tears
but let's all fix our eyes on the Giver of life.
being an angel mom is painful.

Wishing you all angel moms healthy and screeming rainbows
With all of my love